this poison i took the risk... i choose this poison and it is the end of everything,my paroXysm of joy.. the sweetest poison and the beautiful mistake of all..it will last my searching, this poison is my cure...i swallow it slow, i like the taste of it.i cannot sense it, undescribe....but it's burning my throat, filling in every inch of my vain, my nerve, my blood...undescribe....i feel pain, pleasure of pain,..pain of pleasure.. the neverending pleasure.it gaves me thoughts...i should appreciate this most!it's not like smelling a wine and you already know how sweet it is...it is more to guess,...will i cry?? will i smile???